how to capture darkness on canvas?

How to express silence in words?

Are these questions question?

Or answers…

Where does the question ends and answer begins?

Fusion in confusion is not always tension

Yet there remains question

Are there lines?

If not why can’t I capture darkness?

Or express silence in words?

Sometimes we are left with answers

Which look like questions…..

Change

I was drawing a sketch

And it grew dark till the time I completed it

It isn’t what I wanted to draw

It isn’t what it is

Sometimes I ask myself

What it is?

I searched long for a name

I finally got one, it’s ‘change’

'dhool ka kaan' udd jata hain hawa ke jhoonke ke sath

dhoondhne ke liye apni ek jagah

jaha woh akela ho, sabse alag ho

jaha ho uska apna astitva

akela hokar hi woh yeh samajh pata hai

dhool se dur hokar

dhool se alag hokar bhi

hai toh akhir woh bhi dhool hi

aur phir udd jata hain ek aur hawa ke jhoonke ke sath

ussi dhool main mill jaane ke liye

jaha se woh aaya tha, yeh jaankar

dhool se alag dhool ka koi astitva nahi hota....

uska srujan tabhi sambhav hain

jab iss dhool se fasal bane, khilona bane

jab iss dhool se ek ghar baane, moorti baane

aur yeh sampoorna sansar uska srujan- mancha baane

'iss dhool se dhool tak ke safar main hum dhool huye jaa rahe hain, aur phir bhi unhe yehi shikayat hai ki mere kamare main itni dhool kyu hain'

The words 'invention' and 'discovery' are so close yet so far. One says i made it i am the master. Other says it was always there, it was my pleasure to know it. I know not who did it but i didn't. It is the pleasure in being what we are rather that trying to be what we are not. And in the process being something which we do not want to be. It is the basic difference between the want and a need. It is the ego which differentiates the two. And indeed one of the reason behind pain in this world. Sometimes it takes one's life time to understand it, sometimes a moment. This journey from invention to discovery is long yet so short, meaningless yet so meaningful.

Its not my actions but the purpose behind the actions that makes me unique.